I don't know what is real

I don't know what to think. 
I don't know what to feel. 
I don't know what is me,
I don't know what is real. 
Am I just imagining, 
These thoughts within my heart. 
Is it only make believe? 
It's tearing me apart. 
I really can't explain it. 
It really makes no sense. 
It's like I don't deserve it,
But it's giving me such happiness. 
I really wish I knew. 
Each moment of each day. 
I wonder if you feel it too?
I don't know what to say. 
What's happening to me? 
These feelings are so new.
Will you help me see?
If you feel it too? 
Because I don't know what you think
And I don't know what you feel. 
I don't know what is you, 
And I don't know what is real?

Renee Conaway
10/09/16