A little Break

It wasn't intentional but for the past nearly two weeks I have been on blogging hiatus! I don't know why writing or reading blogs has slipped my mind but it did! But now I am back and blogging strong!!! So a little update on my life in recent weeks! My sister moved out at the beginning of the month. So I have moved into the bigger bedroom. It was a task I was not prepared for (and kinda didn't want to do because of the work involved) but I have done it and am actually glad I did! It really does make a difference and in the middle of the move I re-organized several things and went thru a lot of junk I didn't need to keep anymore. I shred a lot of papers and so I am glad now. I finally have my pictures on the walls and lights to see by. I did have a slight setback for a couple days where after I got moved in I set up some Nightmare Before Christmas lights I have and I hung them and plugged them into the wall for the lightswitch. In my old room there was a ceiling fan with a light in it and my lamp is so bright that I decided this was good for simple lighting situations. Well the next day the switch went out! UGH so a few days later I managed to get to walmart and buy a new switch that my dad helped me to install. So I have my lights again. The only thing that I haven't done is put pictures on my photo board and mirror (they are the kinds with the wood and the fabric fronts with the ribbons to slide pictures into) I figured many of those pictures were several years old and so I would like to slowly update them with newer pictures!

I am unfortunately still out of work. It is frustrating and is very hard to be at home so much but I have decided that for sure I am going to look for a dispatcher position elsewhere. This way as I continue to heal (hopefully...some days seem really good, others seem realyl bad) I can work ina desk type job so that I won't reinjure it soon! I had picked up an application about a month ago but have not yet turned it in. It is now filled out and ready to go but I need to attach a current type test certificate showing I can type more than 35 wpm. In the past I have tested in the high 40's and low 50's so I am thinking I should be able to manage that. Part of my delay other than really missing the ambulance was that I wanted to speak to my work and let them know that I am looking and that it isn't because I don't want to return there but because I don't want to return unhealed adn that I don't want to continue to be out of work. So last week I finally made it to work for a visit and was able to talk to who I needed to. They understood! That made me happy and having been there for an hour or so it felt like a new place. It didn't seem like the same environment I left from when I was working. There are a lot of new faces and overall it didn't have the same joyous feeling I remember, the feelings I miss! So that makes it feel right. That I do need a change of scene in my life. That maybe I willl enjoy dispatch after all! I know that the nearly double salary of what I make as an EMT will definately be easier to accept! I do think that eventually I would like to return to an ambulance someday! I have learned a lot by treating others. I love the feeling that I can make a difference in the life of someone else. I loved taking war veterans and other elderly patients who have so much knowledge and experiance they are willing to share! I just loved my job. I didn't necessarily love cleaning up vomit or other bodily fluids within my ambulance but I love making a difference. I love saving lives! It was a rewarding job and a great learning experiance for me! Life on an ambulance was good living!

Well yesterday I went to one of my other homes..... Disneyland! It was amazing. The weather forcast was for thundershowers but we barely got sprinkled on! It wasn't too crowded in the park and I was with a great friend and her mom! We had a blast! We got to ride all we wanted to ride and see some of the shows. We went to the "Turtle Talk with Crush" (I recommend it, it is WAY CUTE) and crush talked to me...he called me Radical Renee! It was fun! And I got a picture with Handy Manny! I know he is a character from a childrens show but being with my nephews so much I have seen it and I enjoy Manny a lot! And when I was done getting the picture and told him thank you he blew me a kiss :) It was sweet! While there Betty asked me if I would be willing to drive with her to Utah on Sun and she would get me a flight home for Weds. So I am getting to go to Utah! I am very excited about that! I was just telling my mom on Tues how frustrated I have been getting lately and I didn't tell her this part but I have been starting to get kind of depressed and so it will be nice to get away for a few days! Being out of work really stinks! I don't think I will mind as much when I am married and have a place of my own where I don't have to put up with other family members who don't do things for themselves and then wonder why they are overweight and feel like crap and are sick all the time. When I am raising my own kids and not helping full time to take care of others kids it will have a different meaning and a different feeling to it! I cannot wait for that day!

Hopefully my knee is improving. Some days it seems like it may be and others it is hurting enough for pain pills! It really is hard to tell, but I did get another cortisone shot about a week ago. This time they injected the area of the MCL and into the soft tissue not the joint. So hopefully it will make a difference! So thats the story of my life. It hasn't changed much. I am still not at work which I hate, I am still having knee problems which I hate ev en more and I am tired of being stuck at home but I am getting away soon, which I love! I still love Disneyland and got to go and ride Small World and see the Christmas stuff. Since Christmas is my favorite holiday I am excited. Today I started listening to my Christmas cd's again!

I realized that even though there is a lot of negatives in my life right now with it being thanksgiving and allI know that I do still have a lot to be thankful for! I have the gospel first and foremost which is incredible! My life would be so different if I didn't have that! I know that I wouldn't have such amazing friends and the truth that it will all be ok. That I can and will learn from this experience and it is all for a greater good! With the gospel I have the scriptures and the Temples! Many blessings there!
2nd I have a great family! Despite their getting on my nerves more often than not I know that they love me and I love them! I know that in the grand scheme of things if anything were to happen to me they would be by my side in a heartbeat! That is an incredible blessing! I know so many people who don't have that and it is sad!
3rd I have food, clothing, shelter, employment and transportation! These are all pretty self explanatory.
4th I have medical insurance! Especially with my knee condition this is an incredible blessing. I couldn't get it better if I didn't have medical coverage!
5th I live in a beautiful area and in a safe city. I know there is crime here as well as anywhere else but generally I am a lot safer here than many other areas of the world. There are many many more things I could list many big and small! I love being able to brush my teeth for instance and am thankful for that.... but overall I am just really happy that my Heavenly Father loves me and that he put me here in this day and age and has given me the opportunities that he has!