So I haven't written in awhile.... a long long while. But such is my crazy life. A lot has happened in the past several months. Many of which have been trials that I've had to go thru. I have learned a lot in those experiences and am continuing to move forward and look ahead. I am not perfect and I know my life won't always be but it's nice to be able to keep going.
I don't want to go into details, but I am no longer renting with my friend. In short, it wasn't working out for us as roommates. I felt in some occasions she was selfish and although I was trying to overlook those situations, when i came home and overheard her (she was in her bedroom with the door shut, but was talking loud enough to be heard from the front door, it's hard not to overhear at that point) talking about me on the phone. She said some negative things and was not really talking as someone who is/was my friend. I decided at that point in time I was ready to move on and to find somewhere else to live where I would be respected as an idividual and would be appreciated for things I would do. I am not saying I was necessarily a perfect roommate to her, maybe there was things she didn't appreciate but I was not going to be disrespected and treated negatively. I had previously been getting that at my parents house and was not going to tolerate it from my so called friend.
The next day I was able to get into contact with someone I have known for a long time who I knew rented rooms. I went after work and spoke with her and a little more than 2 weeks later I moved. I am now renting a very large studio size room. I have full house priviledges, laundry kitchen etc. There are a couple other renters but I rarely see them and so it works out perfectly. As I said I have known the lady I rent from for a very long time (since preschool, I grew up with her son) and so she is like a second mom to me. I love being in her home. I feel so comfortable and happy here. I am still in Simi and not far from my parents either so I can go over there and see them or my nephews if I want. My room is set up with my TV, futon and bean bag at one end of the room, and my shelves, keyboard, and bed at the other end. It's nice. I have free wall space, I have a closet that is nearly 12 feet long so I have plenty of space! Otherwise it's nice to come home and cook myself dinner with enough to have dinner and lunch the next day. I am eating healthier and am very happy. My friend is no longer talking to me. It was hard at first but I have realized I am better off without the negativity she constantly had. I know who my true friends are, they're the ones who strive to be happy and encourage me to be happy. they're the ones still by my side after all these years!
Other than the stress of moving and having to get settled into a new place again just barely 4.5 months after I had moved in the first place things have been going well. I got to go shooting with the officers from work. It was incredible. I did really well for my first time. I still don't think I would feel completely comfortable going shooting on my own yet but it was great being amongst people I trust. I really learned a lot. I also got to spend a weekend in Vegas with my friend Angela and also with officers and friends from work. It was for the Baker 2 Vegas law enforcement relay run. It was a really great weekend. I am not much of a Vegas person but it was fun getting away and spending time with friends. I learned a lot that weekend as well. After that trip was when the poem "Windy Emotions" was born. It was an interesting weekend with some of the things that happened. I guess that's why they say "what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas" don't worry I didn't do anything immoral or against my beliefs. Just emotions from relationships and such.
I think that's mostly it. I mean things are always kind of chugging along. My family is great and still so supportive of me and I am thankful for them. Especially back in March when I chose to move in a short time frame. They are happy for me since I am in a better place now and am happier. I will likely be here for awhile. I am sure that lots of other things both good and bad have happened since I last wrote, but for the most part things have been improving. I am glad for that. Church is great and i am thankful for having the Gospel. I am glad that everyday I can read my scriptures, both in the Bible and the Book of Mormon and grow closer to my brother and Savior Jesus Christ. I am thankful for the Spirit and being so blessed. Not much more to say for tonight!